Post by PANTHRO on Aug 2, 2014 16:20:36 GMT -6
||:||Fight Through The Pain, Keep On Moving Forward.||:||
I stood before the thousands, with the company of friends and let Jonathan Collins know that if he needed us, I would fight by his side. I told him my fears, I let him know that he wasn't in this alone. The Big L for that moment through his bravado and proud demeanor, showed FEAR and in The Big L's deepest darkest parts of his being, he still feels it. It makes me sick to my stomach, makes me angry, and goddamn it I don't know what to DO!! I told Jon, that I was scared, I was scared of what EXODUS was going to fall into, a deep dark depression ruled by the oppressor and tyrant of Magnus Gunner. And Jon, the guy who brought me here in the first place, the man that I confined in when I didn't know if I could cut it here, continued to have self doubt. Jonathan Collins the man I called a friend, the man who I looked to when facing Gods and Monsters to have my back...gone...in the dark...brooding.
I love this place to death, this is my home. I love it so much that I rather DIE than watch it be turned into this dark and twisted kingdom Gods and Monsters looks to turn it into. I look around me and I see disorder, I see dysfunction, I see friends BITING at each other and it makes me ANGRY. Rather than fighting Gods and Monsters we're here fighting among ourselves, and it HURTS and it pisses me off and-- y'know what? I'm not going to get into that. I've had two weeks to fuckin' stew and The Big L has enough inside of his pot at the moment, so let's get right to it. Justin Brooks is someone who I thought knew better. He knows me, he knows what I'm capable of, he KNOWS that through HELL and BACK I will continue to fight.
I love this place to death, this is my home. I love it so much that I rather DIE than watch it be turned into this dark and twisted kingdom Gods and Monsters looks to turn it into. I look around me and I see disorder, I see dysfunction, I see friends BITING at each other and it makes me ANGRY. Rather than fighting Gods and Monsters we're here fighting among ourselves, and it HURTS and it pisses me off and-- y'know what? I'm not going to get into that. I've had two weeks to fuckin' stew and The Big L has enough inside of his pot at the moment, so let's get right to it. Justin Brooks is someone who I thought knew better. He knows me, he knows what I'm capable of, he KNOWS that through HELL and BACK I will continue to fight.
But Justin Brooks wants to play the monster, wants to think he's unstoppable, wants to think that no one can beat him. If Justin Brooks was a smart he knows that The Big L's fought GODS and MONSTERS and even then--even NOW--I'M STILL STANDING!!! He wants to talk about he's going to use those big ass frying pan sized hands to destroy me. Well I got a size 13 to refute your argument, because Justin Brooks, someone who I once called a partner, you have NO CLUE...and The Big L means NO FUCKING CLUE what he's feeling right now!!! You have no idea what the Hell is going through my head, you don't have any idea of the torment I have to face knowing that EXODUS is in jeopardy and I'm helpless in doing NOTHING ABOUT IT!!! YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT A SLEEPING GIANT IS, THAT'S ME HOMIE!!!! BECAUSE I GOT ALL THIS PENT OF ANGER, ALL OF THESE EMOTIONS, FLOODING OUT OF ME....and unfortunately you're stuck in front of it.
Make no mistakes about it Justin, The Big L knows what you're capable of. That's the very reason we went after the tag team belts, because you're a capable guy. But don't mistake me for some little guppy JB, don't get it twisted. You and I both know, when The Big L goes in determined, when he's hungry, when the game is rigged against him, he WINS. The Big L stays hungry 24/7, 365 days with NO REST and he shows it each night. From San Diego to Tokyo all the way back to my home in Virginia; I FIGHT WITH EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE, because that is who I am. That's me genetic makeup, that is who I'll be until my final years on this damn planet!! So you can be a monster, you can be this BEAST, and I'm gonna be what I've always been in my career....
ME.
I...don't know what to feel, I don't know what's going to happen anymore. I kissed Victoria lightly on her head and got out of bed, sore from two weeks ago, but I'm a big boy, I can manage...I can cope. I rubbed my face and got into the shower, then went to the gym to try and clear my head, but still after three hours I still...can't. Something inside of me, broken, it's causing the entire machine to lag behind. I was...sad...maybe? No, I felt...fear...it showed on my face, that doubt that I tried to mask over with my brash attitude wasn't going to be enough. Deep down I knew that the odds were against the Sekigun, and I...I...I just don't know. And it seems no one knows, not Jon, not Fiona, not me, NO ONE KNOWS what to do!
I remember going through my old vinyl records, organizing them, trying to keep myself busy; Trying to ignorant this anxiety as best I can.
Victoria: Stephen...?
Steve Lenton: Cameo...theeennn...Chuck Berry....then Commodores...then...
Victoria: Hey.
Steve Lenton: ...
I look at her and then look back at my records.
Victoria: Are you okay? You left early in the morning, I didn't even see you come in and it's already noon.
Steve Lenton: I was just out, uh, worked out, took a jog around the Washington Monument, grabbed a bite to eat, and I came back here to organize my records. Heh...
I show her my old Prince record.
Steve Lenton: My aunt, Monica, you met her back home...? She gave me this...and this record player when I went off to V-Tech? This thing is old, like, really old, my grandparents had it back in the day so it has a lot of value. But, uhm, this....this one right here...Purple Rain...? God have you heard this album it's amazing, let's listen to it--
Victoria: Stephen.
Steve Lenton: Hold on let me get it started.
Victoria sat there, a look of worry on her face. I put it on... "Purple Rain" ...I loved this song when I was a kid. I stood up, eyes closed and go over towards her. Victoria continued to look at me as she had her arms folded over her chest.
Steve Lenton: C'mon dance with me...
I go up to touch her, she steps away, giving me a stern glare. I look back at her, acting confused.
Steve Lenton: What's wrong...?
She walks pass me and stops the record, she looks down at the floor, her body still in it's same pose.
Victoria: ...You've been acting weird.
Steve Lenton: What? What's wrong?
Victoria: I saw your tweets to Black...I saw your tweets to Jon...for two weeks now, you've been quiet. You're distant, you haven't been answering your phone lately and it all seems to stem from two weeks ago back in Japan. I saw the show, I know what's going on and Stephen I'm not happy about the result either, but you can't block it--
Steve Lenton: Everything is fine...alright...? I'm good. There's nothing else we need to speak about now, c'mon, can we at least have some fun? C'mon now...
I go back to put the record on, but she blocks it, I look at her with a small frown and serious expression.
Victoria: ...
Steve Lenton: Can we not do this?
Victoria: You know, for someone who likes to pride himself on being a man of humility and tenacity--
Steve Lenton: ...Really...?
Victoria: Yes, really, for someone who prides himself on being this big man of conviction you don't seem to be taking all of this in stride. Now I've known you for almost two years now, which is plenty of time to know the man you've fallen for. You've never acted like this not like some...some...
Steve Lenton: Go on...say it.
Victoria: Some little child who's lost his BALL.
I look at her, then rub the corners of my mouth backing away some, before pacing the floor. I force a smile on my face and throw my arms up from my sides, shaking my head in clear denial.
Steve Lenton: W-W-What is it...you want me to say? What the Hell do you want me to say?! In the last TWO YEARS Vic...TWO YEARS I've FOUGHT for that fuckin' place as hard as I could. TWO TIMES I was put into a hospital bed, not knowing where I was, losing five more years of my life at the hands of MONSTERS!!! And it's a whole different beast in that ring, I can tell you that. Back in my football days...guys didn't intentionally want to HURT YOU...END YOU...DESTROY YOU...it was apart of the game, t-they had DREAMS of being in the NFL--and this these guys want to make sure you can't walk!! A GRADE THREE CONCUSSION VIC...A GRADE THREE CONCUSSION COULD HAVE--
Victoria: I KNOW.
Steve Lenton: IF YOU KNOW THEN YOU SHOULD KNOW WHY I'M LIKE THIS!!!
Victoria: LIKE WHAT, STEPHEN, SPEAK TO ME, LIKE WHAT...?!
Steve Lenton: I'M FUCKING SCARED!!!!
I pick up my crate of records and toss them across the room. Victoria jumped a bit, looking on a bit scared at the side of me, I hated. She placed a hand over her mouth and looked back at me as I paced the floor. My eyes frantic with a mix of discouragement and disheartening sadness. I broke down and sat down on the couch, covering my head. I rub my hands across my face and stop them at my mouth looking up at her, blinking a few times.
Steve Lenton: I'm scared...I'm actually scared and it's eating me alive. We fight, and we fight, and we fight, and we WEAR these fucking scars and for what? There is no future for this!! LAS...can't WALK!!!! Is that what we're fighting for?!? TO BE WHEELED AROUND IN A FUCKING WHEELCHAIR?! I can't--my future with you...my future with my family I just--Victoria I--
She kneels down in front of me and kisses me deeply. She brushes small tears from my eyes and gives me a smile. She begins to tear up a bit and sniffles looking at me.
Victoria: Stephen, babe, look at me. No matter what happens...okay...you will never lose me or anyone else that you love. And love, I know you hurt, and I know that these last few weeks have been tough. You have to fight for this, and there will be tragedy, love, there always is when you're entrenched in such a foul dispute. You. Have to. Trust them. Jon may have let you down, but he is your friend, and he is a good man. He needs you, he needs all of you, and you have to be there for him.
She raises my head up and looks me dead in the eyes.
I kept quiet, looking into her eyes. Victoria smiled, looking at me...then turned the record back on. I smirked at her and pulled her up into my arms, he straddled me gently. I rested my head onto her chest as she coddled me. She stroked my head and kissed it, looking out into the distance as I rocked her in my arms to the song.
I never meant to cause you any sorrow
I never meant to cause you any pain
I only wanted to one time to see you laughing
I only wanted to see you
Laughing in the purple rain...
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted to see you
Bathing in the purple rain...
I had a debt to this company to do anything and everything in my power to see it prosper. I wouldn't see EXODUS fall, I wouldn't ALLOW it to fall. Too many people fought too hard for it...
I never wanted to be your weekend lover
I only wanted to be some kind of friend
Baby, I could never steal you from another
It's such a shame our friendship had to end
If I had people like Victoria, my friends, the fans of EXODUS...if I had them...
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted to see you
Underneath the purple rain
Honey, I know, I know
I know times are changing
It's time we all reach out
For something new, that means you too
I glanced up at Victoria who stared into my brown eyes. I rose up and kissed her with passion, she began to sit down a bit in my lap and kissed me back with as much love as I did. I began to work my hands onto her lower back...
Purple rain, purple rain
I only want to see you
Only want to see you
In the purple rain!!!!
We stayed like this...the guitar playing in the background. For that moment, I felt at ease, and I felt that I could fight. I knew...I'd be able to fight through anything if I had this type of love. Goddamn am I lucky....
The Big L was pacing back and forth in front of a white painted brick wall. He was at the gym, tryna work up a sweat. He had his shades on, wearing a tight tanktop, ready to put in that work. The Big L keeps pacing, getting ready to unleash his hype!!
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted to see you
Bathing in the purple rain...
I had a debt to this company to do anything and everything in my power to see it prosper. I wouldn't see EXODUS fall, I wouldn't ALLOW it to fall. Too many people fought too hard for it...
I never wanted to be your weekend lover
I only wanted to be some kind of friend
Baby, I could never steal you from another
It's such a shame our friendship had to end
If I had people like Victoria, my friends, the fans of EXODUS...if I had them...
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted to see you
Underneath the purple rain
Honey, I know, I know
I know times are changing
It's time we all reach out
For something new, that means you too
I glanced up at Victoria who stared into my brown eyes. I rose up and kissed her with passion, she began to sit down a bit in my lap and kissed me back with as much love as I did. I began to work my hands onto her lower back...
Purple rain, purple rain
I only want to see you
Only want to see you
In the purple rain!!!!
We stayed like this...the guitar playing in the background. For that moment, I felt at ease, and I felt that I could fight. I knew...I'd be able to fight through anything if I had this type of love. Goddamn am I lucky....
The Big L was pacing back and forth in front of a white painted brick wall. He was at the gym, tryna work up a sweat. He had his shades on, wearing a tight tanktop, ready to put in that work. The Big L keeps pacing, getting ready to unleash his hype!!
Steve Lenton: Just when you think the SUNTAN SUPERMAN, the BROWN-SKIN ASSASSIN, the BLACK ZEUS is done, he comes to you...back...and ready to go. The Big L returns back to his home, yes his home, SAN DI-EGO, CAL-I-FORN-IA!!!! The Big L misses coming to the RIMAC Arena, He misses the rowdy ass college kids and wrestling addicts, He misses the California sunshine, and He misses PUTTING SOLES IN ASSHOLES for the AMERICAN FANS!!! YES, THE BIG L IS BACK!!! And He might be empty handed, He look like He shed a few pounds of title belt, BUT HE AIN'T DONE!!! The Big L knows what's been goin' on in EXODUS, he ain't stupid, Magnus Gunner is still champion and yeah a lot of people know it's bad. The Big L knows it's bad, He's got goosebumps rushin' over'em, because He knows Magnus Gunner is a dangerous man! The Big L knows what Gods and Monsters are capable of, and The Big L would be lying if He said he wasn't scared...because I am scared. I'm scared for the future, for what EXODUS will be, which is the best independent wrestling company in San Diego! But it will not be that if Magnus Gunner, represents our company!
The Big L knows full well that Gods and Monsters must be stopped, and even if he goes it alone or with his dear friends in his corner, THEY WILL BE STOPPED!!! Just like how I will stop Justin Brooks, The Big BAAAAAD Justin Brooks in San Diego in two days!! He wants to be a monster, he wants to be a beast, the guy who said "Screw the fans! The fans are the problem not me!" He wants say The Big L shouldn't listen to the fans, they ain't what's poppin'. Instead he wants to play the John Coffey to Cleon Gray's TOM HANKS!!! This ain't the Green Mile though, this is the BLACK MILE, and down the BLACK MILE, you see ME, the black ass badass ready to TEAR INTO YOU!!! Justin Brooks knows, he knows my conviction, he knows that with every ounce of The Big L he will FIGHT; Justin Brooks knows that if you hooked The Big L to a lighthouse as a main power source, His very HYPE would power that son of a bitch!!!
JUSTIN BROOKS...should be very afraid of The Big L, he should be very afraid of The Big L's current state and he should be VERY...VERY afraid of turning on these fans. Because the fans, The Big L's power, his lifeline, the very essence that allows him to come into San Diego, California bi-weekly for a show will forever be here! Justin Brooks better understand that as long as these people cheer my name, as long as they cheer for me I will do ANYTHING for them. And you might've turn your ass to'em JB, but The Big L through the POWER...of the fans will for one unit, one giant FOOT that will proceed to kick your Donkey Kong lookin' ass up and down the SAN DIEGO BAY AREA!!! So say what you want, talk your shit now, but The Big L is comin' into this show, and he's going to be giving out these ass-beatings for FREE!!! What do you think about THAT...JACK!!!
The Big L knows full well that Gods and Monsters must be stopped, and even if he goes it alone or with his dear friends in his corner, THEY WILL BE STOPPED!!! Just like how I will stop Justin Brooks, The Big BAAAAAD Justin Brooks in San Diego in two days!! He wants to be a monster, he wants to be a beast, the guy who said "Screw the fans! The fans are the problem not me!" He wants say The Big L shouldn't listen to the fans, they ain't what's poppin'. Instead he wants to play the John Coffey to Cleon Gray's TOM HANKS!!! This ain't the Green Mile though, this is the BLACK MILE, and down the BLACK MILE, you see ME, the black ass badass ready to TEAR INTO YOU!!! Justin Brooks knows, he knows my conviction, he knows that with every ounce of The Big L he will FIGHT; Justin Brooks knows that if you hooked The Big L to a lighthouse as a main power source, His very HYPE would power that son of a bitch!!!
JUSTIN BROOKS...should be very afraid of The Big L, he should be very afraid of The Big L's current state and he should be VERY...VERY afraid of turning on these fans. Because the fans, The Big L's power, his lifeline, the very essence that allows him to come into San Diego, California bi-weekly for a show will forever be here! Justin Brooks better understand that as long as these people cheer my name, as long as they cheer for me I will do ANYTHING for them. And you might've turn your ass to'em JB, but The Big L through the POWER...of the fans will for one unit, one giant FOOT that will proceed to kick your Donkey Kong lookin' ass up and down the SAN DIEGO BAY AREA!!! So say what you want, talk your shit now, but The Big L is comin' into this show, and he's going to be giving out these ass-beatings for FREE!!! What do you think about THAT...JACK!!!
The Big L storms away, leaving the camera to a white brick wall. The scene begins to fade, but the viewers could feel the hype, the anger, and the overall EXCITEMENT pour from their TV screen, computer monitor, or smartphone into them. This show was going to be a good one, bank on it!
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