Post by Payton James on Feb 23, 2014 22:11:21 GMT -6
Do you know what was the best part about today?
It was waking up to feel the warmth of the sun shining on my face. That beautiful San Diego sunshine. The comforting silence of my apartment. My very own private getaway where I could be alone with my thoughts. Mixed with the feeling of truly being alive, the kind of alive that courses throughout your veins at every moment of the day. Pushing back the covers from my body and allowing for my feet to land up against the polished wooden floorboards. I feel perfectly at ease.
For the first time in a long time.
Is that a foreign concept? Sometimes I feel like it might be, but maybe that's just because this is the first time in my life that I've uprooted myself from everything I used to know and love. Jumping head first into a new adventure with no safety net to catch me as I went spiraling down having fully thrown caution into the wind.
Isn't that the most frightening aspect of life, when you can't predict the next step in your journey?
Yet that is also the best part, that fear, and that challenge which helps push you farther along the way. This was my motivation, my reasoning for why I had taken such a giant leap of faith. Everything inside of myself was trying to reassure my fears that whether it was a win or a loss, it shouldn't ever be anything to make me feel ashamed. Not if I was out there, no matter what, putting absolutely everything out on the line.
You need to give them something to remember after all and that's exactly what I intend to do.
Payton James
Bonjour, good day...
Bonjour, good day...
I smile for the camera I am holding in the palm of my hand as I lay upon the mattress of the bed enjoying the smooth cool feel of the sheets up against the surface of my skin. I was dressed in a simple pair of light grey cotton shorts and a black tanktop with my dark brown flowing free in a mixture of curls against the bedsheets. My face was scrubbed clean of makeup and honestly the most beautiful thing a woman can wear is always going to be the smile on her face. This was something I kept constant as I continued speaking for the camera, my own personal camera for my first video diary, an exciting moment.
Payton James
My name is Payton James. I'm sure not too many know it, but you will, you are all going to know exactly who Payton James is once I truly get my feet wet in this business. I'm already working on making an impact and it helps to have one of the most talented females to step foot in EXODUS as my own personal trainer. Fiona Rourke, oh my apologies, I meant Fiona Collins. I think it's so amazing and touching that my two mentors are now married, her and Jonathan Collins have been absolutely instrumental in guiding me along every single step of this journey. Knowing that I am making them proud every single time I show improvement is helping me soar up to a completely higher level. It makes me that much more determined to put all of my focus, my attention, my heart and soul directly into my career. I want to make this a success and I'm willing to put absolutely anything on the line to ensure I'm a big enough deal to be remembered at the end of the day. I want to go down in history like Fiona Collins. I want her to be proud of me and to not once have to regret in her decision to take me under her wing. I want the same out of Jon and even out of Jimmy Riley who was also kind enough to offer me the benefit of his experience in this business. They are all my driving force walking into this match, they will push me to my limits, they will help me jump up higher than I have before in my life all in effort to not disappoint those who have shown me such kindness. It means the world to me to know that I am training with the Marauders and I will not disappoint them. Ever.
My name is Payton James. I'm sure not too many know it, but you will, you are all going to know exactly who Payton James is once I truly get my feet wet in this business. I'm already working on making an impact and it helps to have one of the most talented females to step foot in EXODUS as my own personal trainer. Fiona Rourke, oh my apologies, I meant Fiona Collins. I think it's so amazing and touching that my two mentors are now married, her and Jonathan Collins have been absolutely instrumental in guiding me along every single step of this journey. Knowing that I am making them proud every single time I show improvement is helping me soar up to a completely higher level. It makes me that much more determined to put all of my focus, my attention, my heart and soul directly into my career. I want to make this a success and I'm willing to put absolutely anything on the line to ensure I'm a big enough deal to be remembered at the end of the day. I want to go down in history like Fiona Collins. I want her to be proud of me and to not once have to regret in her decision to take me under her wing. I want the same out of Jon and even out of Jimmy Riley who was also kind enough to offer me the benefit of his experience in this business. They are all my driving force walking into this match, they will push me to my limits, they will help me jump up higher than I have before in my life all in effort to not disappoint those who have shown me such kindness. It means the world to me to know that I am training with the Marauders and I will not disappoint them. Ever.
Payton James
I will get my chance to prove myself against Phillippe Bertrand. Vanity seems to be a good friend for Phillippe and I think we can all relate to wanting to feel like we are the most beautiful on some occasion. After all, I'm no stranger to dolling myself up a little in order to feel a bit sexier about myself in general. Sometimes I don't even do it for anybody else, I just like to do it for me, because I like to think I'm worthy enough to feel good about myself and like what I see in the mirror. I don't even need makeup for that to happen, which is exactly why I chose to go all natural for this video diary. True beauty is never having to hide yourself behind a mask. This is the real Payton James, Phillippe. The One Girl Revolution. All because I'm not afraid to take any risk, to put myself out there, and to make an impact to have my name be remembered by the end of the night. Will your name be remembered Phillippe? Or are you going to be too focused on making friends with your reflection to remember what we're supposed to do on this night? I mean, I'm worried that you might turn out to be the kind of guy who's going to be too afraid to get his hands dirty. I'm getting some kind of a metrosexual vibe with the way you walk around with that certain je ne sais quoi. Is it because you're French? No judgments here, I'm just curious. I'm not afraid to get down and dirty though, I can take my lumps and bruises, anything to be able to stay I truly delivered out there for the people. That's my intention walking into this match Phillippe. I want to put on a show and I hope you will be ready to join me on this adventure my little French bird. Please don't disappoint me and don't be so vain that take me at face value. Yes, the outer package is quite pretty, but what's on the inside is a thousand times more effective than what you can find looking at the outer appearance. Don't make a mistake and judge a book by its cover Phillippe. That's usually what most pretty people do and I do believe it always comes back to bite them on the ass in the end.
I will get my chance to prove myself against Phillippe Bertrand. Vanity seems to be a good friend for Phillippe and I think we can all relate to wanting to feel like we are the most beautiful on some occasion. After all, I'm no stranger to dolling myself up a little in order to feel a bit sexier about myself in general. Sometimes I don't even do it for anybody else, I just like to do it for me, because I like to think I'm worthy enough to feel good about myself and like what I see in the mirror. I don't even need makeup for that to happen, which is exactly why I chose to go all natural for this video diary. True beauty is never having to hide yourself behind a mask. This is the real Payton James, Phillippe. The One Girl Revolution. All because I'm not afraid to take any risk, to put myself out there, and to make an impact to have my name be remembered by the end of the night. Will your name be remembered Phillippe? Or are you going to be too focused on making friends with your reflection to remember what we're supposed to do on this night? I mean, I'm worried that you might turn out to be the kind of guy who's going to be too afraid to get his hands dirty. I'm getting some kind of a metrosexual vibe with the way you walk around with that certain je ne sais quoi. Is it because you're French? No judgments here, I'm just curious. I'm not afraid to get down and dirty though, I can take my lumps and bruises, anything to be able to stay I truly delivered out there for the people. That's my intention walking into this match Phillippe. I want to put on a show and I hope you will be ready to join me on this adventure my little French bird. Please don't disappoint me and don't be so vain that take me at face value. Yes, the outer package is quite pretty, but what's on the inside is a thousand times more effective than what you can find looking at the outer appearance. Don't make a mistake and judge a book by its cover Phillippe. That's usually what most pretty people do and I do believe it always comes back to bite them on the ass in the end.
Payton James
When the bell rings, when this is all over, will you sing me a song Phillippe? I would so enjoy that.
When the bell rings, when this is all over, will you sing me a song Phillippe? I would so enjoy that.
I giggle and press my lips together in a pout blowing a kiss for the video camera before I reach out with my other hand to flip it closed and effectively putting an end to my first video diary. I felt excited right now. I felt blessed. It was a brand new chapter in my life and I couldn't wait to see exactly where this road was leading me, I walked along the path, but I had no idea of what exactly what was waiting for me at the end of the line. This is the way I wanted it though, I wanted to be surprised, I wanted to have the mysteries of life to keep me in suspense and on my toes as I eagerly awaited the next step waiting for me no matter what the end product was going to be, whether good or bad. I was going to be prepared.
One Girl Revolution.
Let's get this started.
