Post by Deleted on Mar 15, 2014 22:00:59 GMT -6
(I'm on a phone. Hope you werent expecting too much sexy.)
I never felt uncomfortable in my own skin. Even when wearing someone else's, I can happily meld in. There is no awkward hesitation with me, there is no insecurity. Everything I do is done with deliberate and perfectly calculated steps.
And I simply can't feel anything but absolute disgust welling in my pit for anyone so inept they can't manage to keep their face. It makes me want to rip theirs off, and set fire to it so I don't have to look at the disgusting sight of failure a moment longer.
Fortunately I am capable enough to contain myself from taking these poor souls out and putting them out of their prolonged misery.
I smile to the camera. "Last week was a strong start. As any good run should, the first lunging step makes a difference. And this week will be another impactful move forward." In all prospects it was a good first outing; for me at least.
"This week will be my first singles match. Something I am beside myself with anticipation for, as its my first step in the Tournament for the Title and I will have the pleasure to be standing toe to toe with Carlton Winslow." In truth, Carlton Winslow is less than a person to me. A boy I COULD watch drown and lose no rest over.
"I look at Winslow with a curious view. I see his videos, with his family and I have no idea what to make of it. I never had a mother to coddle me, and when I see that I can't picture it in my life. I never knew her, and never had anything that could remotely resemble this. It is completely alien to me. And I revere that." I deplore it.
"Beyond that, I can see the hot young prospect you are striving to be. The spring in your step is dually noted. I just hope it can live outside of that comfort zone at home. If you can? I'd like to see that." I would be infinitely surprised if he wasn't still being weened off to this day.
"One gift the cold gave me is not to be weighed by that comfortable complacency. I didn't have to look forward to someone happy to see me when I get home, and it never left me. Every day was survival. Now you dont have that luxury, and your comfort will be your handicap. No matter how desperate you are to show something of yourself, that voice in the back of your head says it will turn out regardless. Mine tells me another thing entirely, and that is that I can't stop." Not that I would want to for any one like Winslow or whoever else I'm facing.
"You are a fast mover, fast talker too when mother allows which means your think on your feet. But I'm quick enough to ground you, and big enough to make it count. It's needless to say I am a mind you dont match yourself against. I look forward to competing against such a contrasting style myself so as to see how we can match up. It will be more educational than anything either of us learned in training." Though I doubt it did either of us much good, in different ways. I'm much better at teaching myself anyways.
"Remember this moment, Carlton. This match we have together is just on step forward for the both of us. I'll be amused to see who takes the bigger one." I expect mine to step right onto each of these rats as I proceed forward.
"Just make note that I've got a large gate." I nod, cueing the feed to end and recline back in my thousand dollar chair. A rough week, and the flame was going to flicker before I snuff it out.
I never felt uncomfortable in my own skin. Even when wearing someone else's, I can happily meld in. There is no awkward hesitation with me, there is no insecurity. Everything I do is done with deliberate and perfectly calculated steps.
And I simply can't feel anything but absolute disgust welling in my pit for anyone so inept they can't manage to keep their face. It makes me want to rip theirs off, and set fire to it so I don't have to look at the disgusting sight of failure a moment longer.
Fortunately I am capable enough to contain myself from taking these poor souls out and putting them out of their prolonged misery.
I smile to the camera. "Last week was a strong start. As any good run should, the first lunging step makes a difference. And this week will be another impactful move forward." In all prospects it was a good first outing; for me at least.
"This week will be my first singles match. Something I am beside myself with anticipation for, as its my first step in the Tournament for the Title and I will have the pleasure to be standing toe to toe with Carlton Winslow." In truth, Carlton Winslow is less than a person to me. A boy I COULD watch drown and lose no rest over.
"I look at Winslow with a curious view. I see his videos, with his family and I have no idea what to make of it. I never had a mother to coddle me, and when I see that I can't picture it in my life. I never knew her, and never had anything that could remotely resemble this. It is completely alien to me. And I revere that." I deplore it.
"Beyond that, I can see the hot young prospect you are striving to be. The spring in your step is dually noted. I just hope it can live outside of that comfort zone at home. If you can? I'd like to see that." I would be infinitely surprised if he wasn't still being weened off to this day.
"One gift the cold gave me is not to be weighed by that comfortable complacency. I didn't have to look forward to someone happy to see me when I get home, and it never left me. Every day was survival. Now you dont have that luxury, and your comfort will be your handicap. No matter how desperate you are to show something of yourself, that voice in the back of your head says it will turn out regardless. Mine tells me another thing entirely, and that is that I can't stop." Not that I would want to for any one like Winslow or whoever else I'm facing.
"You are a fast mover, fast talker too when mother allows which means your think on your feet. But I'm quick enough to ground you, and big enough to make it count. It's needless to say I am a mind you dont match yourself against. I look forward to competing against such a contrasting style myself so as to see how we can match up. It will be more educational than anything either of us learned in training." Though I doubt it did either of us much good, in different ways. I'm much better at teaching myself anyways.
"Remember this moment, Carlton. This match we have together is just on step forward for the both of us. I'll be amused to see who takes the bigger one." I expect mine to step right onto each of these rats as I proceed forward.
"Just make note that I've got a large gate." I nod, cueing the feed to end and recline back in my thousand dollar chair. A rough week, and the flame was going to flicker before I snuff it out.