Post by Deleted on Mar 29, 2015 10:26:50 GMT -6
There's a honest to god part of me that doesn't even want to do this.
And no, it's not because I fear about hitting a girl square in the teeth. Because believe me, she deserves it more than anybody right now. No, it's not about that one bit.
No, it's about the fact that I'm walking into Tokyo, Japan, holding a title that is near and dear to not only my heart but my FAMILY'S heart, and yet...I still feel defeated. I still feel like there's nothing to hold in this tiny little world we call the planet Earth. I don't feel like my time is come into place just yet and that scares the living hell out of me. You want to know why? Because there's still people out there who will do anything for nothing and will make god damn sure that your life is just as twisted and done as the rest of them. They want to see you sweat, they want to see you cry, they want to see you BLEED. And for what? So you can give them the benefit of the doubt. For what? So you can offer them something that is not worth their time?
That's why they need to go away. To be taken down not only a notch, but for good. Throughout my entire career...no, fuck that, MY ENTIRE LIFE...that's all I was taught. That's all anybody ever teached me. That people will step over you and that all you need to do is to just lie down and take it. No wonder I never became a better wrestler, a better athlete, a better person. THEY TOLD ME TO ALWAYS PLAY THE VICTIM! To always feel defeated so people can give you the time and affection that you have always wanted. No wonder I was always told that I was a martyr, a sheep in wolf's clothing, a bastard.
And yet, people still believe that a simple change in costume can make you into a fucking superhero. What Chandler Scott took from me in my career the past couple of years...you all saw the repercussions of that a month ago when mara decided to find her First Son. We haven't seen him since. Sure, you hear of rumblings on social media and elsewhere, but that still doesn't hide the fact that he still hasn't shown back up on EXODUS programming since. Because he's afraid. Your little Superman is afraid for a change. Because for once in his life, he finally found his Doomsday and he's afraid to fight because we all know what happened to Superman when he encountered the bruting force.
Maybe that's why I'm "afraid". No, it's not because I'm scared of anything. No, I feel fantastic. I feel wonderful. No...I'm afraid because of everybody else. You see, they have NO idea what's coming. Because something is coming...something far greater than anything else this universe has ever seen in it's entire existence. And it's going to be the grandest event in the history of mankind. And god forbid it's comes anywhere near.
I'm worried about you Savannah Taylor. Worried to death. Because hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. That's what everybody is telling everybody. That's what I'm hearing. Well it won't mean a damn thing. Nope, not ever. Because quite honestly...if I can destroy the almighty Superman without breaking a sweat...then how hard can it be to snap his Lois Lane like a fucking switch? You'll scream, you're try your hardest to avenge the loss of the person you love more than anybody else on this planet, you'll even get a good shot or two on me. I'll admit it. I'll even let you take the first shot on me.
Just wait until I take the first shot on you...then I'll break you in two.
Everybody can tell me that I'm going to Hell...HAH! HAHAHA!!! I'm flying the god damned plane to Hell. So you know what, it doesn't matter.
Because everybody's heroes are falling one by itty-bitty one. It isn't going to stop. It isn't going to end. This is just the beginning.
Finis principium initium.
And no, it's not because I fear about hitting a girl square in the teeth. Because believe me, she deserves it more than anybody right now. No, it's not about that one bit.
No, it's about the fact that I'm walking into Tokyo, Japan, holding a title that is near and dear to not only my heart but my FAMILY'S heart, and yet...I still feel defeated. I still feel like there's nothing to hold in this tiny little world we call the planet Earth. I don't feel like my time is come into place just yet and that scares the living hell out of me. You want to know why? Because there's still people out there who will do anything for nothing and will make god damn sure that your life is just as twisted and done as the rest of them. They want to see you sweat, they want to see you cry, they want to see you BLEED. And for what? So you can give them the benefit of the doubt. For what? So you can offer them something that is not worth their time?
That's why they need to go away. To be taken down not only a notch, but for good. Throughout my entire career...no, fuck that, MY ENTIRE LIFE...that's all I was taught. That's all anybody ever teached me. That people will step over you and that all you need to do is to just lie down and take it. No wonder I never became a better wrestler, a better athlete, a better person. THEY TOLD ME TO ALWAYS PLAY THE VICTIM! To always feel defeated so people can give you the time and affection that you have always wanted. No wonder I was always told that I was a martyr, a sheep in wolf's clothing, a bastard.
And yet, people still believe that a simple change in costume can make you into a fucking superhero. What Chandler Scott took from me in my career the past couple of years...you all saw the repercussions of that a month ago when mara decided to find her First Son. We haven't seen him since. Sure, you hear of rumblings on social media and elsewhere, but that still doesn't hide the fact that he still hasn't shown back up on EXODUS programming since. Because he's afraid. Your little Superman is afraid for a change. Because for once in his life, he finally found his Doomsday and he's afraid to fight because we all know what happened to Superman when he encountered the bruting force.
Maybe that's why I'm "afraid". No, it's not because I'm scared of anything. No, I feel fantastic. I feel wonderful. No...I'm afraid because of everybody else. You see, they have NO idea what's coming. Because something is coming...something far greater than anything else this universe has ever seen in it's entire existence. And it's going to be the grandest event in the history of mankind. And god forbid it's comes anywhere near.
I'm worried about you Savannah Taylor. Worried to death. Because hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. That's what everybody is telling everybody. That's what I'm hearing. Well it won't mean a damn thing. Nope, not ever. Because quite honestly...if I can destroy the almighty Superman without breaking a sweat...then how hard can it be to snap his Lois Lane like a fucking switch? You'll scream, you're try your hardest to avenge the loss of the person you love more than anybody else on this planet, you'll even get a good shot or two on me. I'll admit it. I'll even let you take the first shot on me.
Just wait until I take the first shot on you...then I'll break you in two.
Everybody can tell me that I'm going to Hell...HAH! HAHAHA!!! I'm flying the god damned plane to Hell. So you know what, it doesn't matter.
Because everybody's heroes are falling one by itty-bitty one. It isn't going to stop. It isn't going to end. This is just the beginning.
Finis principium initium.