Post by Deleted on Jul 26, 2015 1:56:50 GMT -6
There's something you need to know about me, dear Ruby. More so than any other problem that I have had with my inner battles.
I'm not that easy to take down.
I've been dealing with many battles, whether they would be mentally or even physically, and yet for some reason, I can't be bargained with. I can't be reasoned with. There's no way to stop me. Stop this force of violence that has been building deep inside me since the day I lost everything that I have ever loved. And I am not just talking about some silly title. No...I'm talking about losing the gears inside your skull, losing the person you can hold in your arms every single day to the world, and not being able to be there for your loved ones. Sure, I know you know that feeling as well, but yours could have easily been avoided. You had a chance to save yourself.
I never got that chance.
You betrayed the family that gave you a new life worth having. I took that chance and made it into something worth having.
And yet, I still feel empty inside. Still hollow. Still craving.
Then I met you.
And there's this...aura that I never have felt inside a soul like yourself before. Never with Angie. Never with Jen. Never with anybody who I've crossed paths with in my entire life. And then I saw you and I...I felt something that I have never felt before. It's...it's like magic. Like first sight jitters. And there rose this interest and rose a feeling in me that I haven't felt in years. I...I don't know how to even explain it, it's...it's just like clockwork. But, I can explain it. After all this time, I can finally tell you how I feel, how I see you every single time I see you walk to that ring, walk in the back, talking to everybody. I...I finally get it. And, I want to tell you so bad and so much how I feel.
Ruby Tyler. Sweetheart...
I hate your fucking guts.
You bring out the worst in everybody that you come across, you feel like you have to be the center of attention, you want to make sure you destroy every single last bit of Family in your life. But let me be the first to tell you that, that ain't happening, love. You brought me to this point in our careers...our lives. You want to end my life, well I want to end yours too. Hence the situation we're in right now. Most couples file for divorce, most couples split their odds and ends, somebody gets the family dog, while the other gets the dinette set. Our situation is a little different, isn't it? I'm not going to lie, it's been awhile since you put me in a situation like this, and I'm finally glad to get another chance in the sunshine to see what you have made me into, sweet Ruby.
Because the last time I was in a "situation" like this, I made somebody rethink his values, rethink his life. I showed the entire world how much of a coward he was, and instead of keeping his head held high and showing that in a life or death world, anything can happen...he walked away. I mentally ruined his career and physically ended it just by the snap of a finger. Now...our scenario plays out a little differently, darling...but I walked out last time with 16 staples in my head and a broken rib. He walked out with bruises and scraps, but guess who won that fight? So I want you to think about that.
Scratch that actually. I want you to think about everything that has gone on the past few months, darling. Every goodwill I have given towards you, every single loving gesture I have done...whether it'd be almost making you talk through a windpipe for the rest of your life or even just beating the living hell out of you. It was ALL out of love, Ruby. And this is going to be no different.
Instead this time, I'm going to make sure to finish the job. To come closer to pure bliss than I ever had to you in my entire life. I want to see the real you come out of that shell. I want to see that inner beauty that I've only seen in spurts come out. I want to make the real Ruby Tyler stand up and shout that she's not going to take it anymore.
Before I bash your brains in.
Just don't lose sight on what's in front of you, okay baby?
I'm not that easy to take down.
I've been dealing with many battles, whether they would be mentally or even physically, and yet for some reason, I can't be bargained with. I can't be reasoned with. There's no way to stop me. Stop this force of violence that has been building deep inside me since the day I lost everything that I have ever loved. And I am not just talking about some silly title. No...I'm talking about losing the gears inside your skull, losing the person you can hold in your arms every single day to the world, and not being able to be there for your loved ones. Sure, I know you know that feeling as well, but yours could have easily been avoided. You had a chance to save yourself.
I never got that chance.
You betrayed the family that gave you a new life worth having. I took that chance and made it into something worth having.
And yet, I still feel empty inside. Still hollow. Still craving.
Then I met you.
And there's this...aura that I never have felt inside a soul like yourself before. Never with Angie. Never with Jen. Never with anybody who I've crossed paths with in my entire life. And then I saw you and I...I felt something that I have never felt before. It's...it's like magic. Like first sight jitters. And there rose this interest and rose a feeling in me that I haven't felt in years. I...I don't know how to even explain it, it's...it's just like clockwork. But, I can explain it. After all this time, I can finally tell you how I feel, how I see you every single time I see you walk to that ring, walk in the back, talking to everybody. I...I finally get it. And, I want to tell you so bad and so much how I feel.
Ruby Tyler. Sweetheart...
I hate your fucking guts.
You bring out the worst in everybody that you come across, you feel like you have to be the center of attention, you want to make sure you destroy every single last bit of Family in your life. But let me be the first to tell you that, that ain't happening, love. You brought me to this point in our careers...our lives. You want to end my life, well I want to end yours too. Hence the situation we're in right now. Most couples file for divorce, most couples split their odds and ends, somebody gets the family dog, while the other gets the dinette set. Our situation is a little different, isn't it? I'm not going to lie, it's been awhile since you put me in a situation like this, and I'm finally glad to get another chance in the sunshine to see what you have made me into, sweet Ruby.
Because the last time I was in a "situation" like this, I made somebody rethink his values, rethink his life. I showed the entire world how much of a coward he was, and instead of keeping his head held high and showing that in a life or death world, anything can happen...he walked away. I mentally ruined his career and physically ended it just by the snap of a finger. Now...our scenario plays out a little differently, darling...but I walked out last time with 16 staples in my head and a broken rib. He walked out with bruises and scraps, but guess who won that fight? So I want you to think about that.
Scratch that actually. I want you to think about everything that has gone on the past few months, darling. Every goodwill I have given towards you, every single loving gesture I have done...whether it'd be almost making you talk through a windpipe for the rest of your life or even just beating the living hell out of you. It was ALL out of love, Ruby. And this is going to be no different.
Instead this time, I'm going to make sure to finish the job. To come closer to pure bliss than I ever had to you in my entire life. I want to see the real you come out of that shell. I want to see that inner beauty that I've only seen in spurts come out. I want to make the real Ruby Tyler stand up and shout that she's not going to take it anymore.
Before I bash your brains in.
Just don't lose sight on what's in front of you, okay baby?